Diabetes

I have it.

I just got back from the doctor, and I have diabetes. I haven't told anyone yet. I can't stop crying.

I'm supposed to be at work. I'm not going to go. How am I going to work when I can't even breathe?

Suddenly I'm plunged into this... category, this pool of people that are diseased. And I'm diseased. And I feel like it's my fault. I did this to myself. If I had been more disciplined or more motivated or.... whatever... then this wouldn't have happened.

It'll get better... I think.